The Handwriting on the Wall: It’s a Bit Fuzzy
Written by Mandy on November 20th, 2008 in Emotional Issues, Links, Symptoms.
Bad handwriting. It’s one more item on the growing list of ways that MS is reshaping my life — another loss of an every day task formerly taken for granted.
As MS patients, we know about loss, great and small. Seeing, hearing, speaking… running, walking, standing… driving, earning a living, signing on the dotted line… all contribute to the ever present threat to independence.
Maybe that’s why each new item on the list, no matter how small, causes us to cringe. We view it as another step toward that uncertain future we all fear, but hope will not come to pass. Dwelling on the worst case scenario does us no good, so we force these thoughts to the furthest recesses of the mind. We focus on today, and the abilities we have here and now, in a natural expression of self-defense. Or is it defiance?
November 23rd, 2008 at 2:15 am
My handwriting was unreadable in 1990. I had surgry to remove a football-sized tumor and while laying in bed I dreamt of witing perfectly; when I left hospital I could write again!!!! Wrote fine for 7 more years. Riddle me that? I’ve since tried dreaming of walking, etc., nothing yet. Just never forget, no matter your loss, it may be returned.
November 23rd, 2008 at 9:58 am
That IS a riddle. AND an amazing story.
Diane, you never fail to get me thinking about things from a whole new angle!